Pain’s Tutelage
Tim Maddox, movement enthusiast
Right now, my heel hurts because I tried to break The Law. I
thought I could escape the inviolable balance of the universe. I thought I
could get away with Too Much Too Soon. Turns out, I am not a special snowflake,
unique and like no other. I’m just a regular schmoe who is susceptible to all
the physical rules and limitations which govern phenomena and circumstances. So
now what?
In Days Gone By
A couple of years ago, I’d have dropped into a depressive
funk, ruminating over the loss of training time and the setback to my ever
tenuous progress. I would have become sullen with a mind clouded by the
thoughts of what I was losing. Sorry family and friends, I’m injured, so I’m
turning on the jerk-mode and interpreting all events through this single
point-of-view. Don’t try to comfort me, my loss is too deep. Ahhh!!! ....the
miles I’m not running and the conditioning I am losing. [Rend garments here].
Changed Perspective
Today, I think about this differently by changing my perspective.
Instead of bemoaning time lost at my primary passion of running, I will direct
my thoughts more toward what I am capable of doing. I now have the opportunity
to revisit the activities I set aside during my long distance training. As a result,
I’ve done more hiking, belly crawling, low-noise movement, rowing, lifting,
climbing, cold exposure and so forth.
What is the Lesson?
Pain can be a distinct and limiting bummer and honestly my little
heel pain is not even on the scale compared to what some folks live with on a
daily basis. My words here reflect my personal experience and what has worked
for me. But the same mental techniques which can help me overcome this physical
issue can also apply to emotional and spiritual pain as well. When I make the
choice for the pain to be an opportunity to practice patience, self-discipline
and to transmute a negative into a positive, I take control, become the active
agent and fight the helplessness or depression which can accompany physical
issues. In this instance the pain itself is not the limiting factor, how I
interpret its impact on the other parts of my life is what matters most. My
perceptions, my mental story, the thoughts I form around what it means to me is
the main cause of any suffering. So I make the choice to let the pain teach me
about myself, about my arrogance, my pride and how lucky I am to have a riddle
in my foot. In this way pain provides me with the opportunity to dive a little
deeper into what this bag of bones, sinew and tissues is all about. Am I just
an asymmetric projection of my movement abilities, a single-focused, all or
nothing actor or am I capable of adapting to my situation, circumstances and
finding the best path forward?
In our lives, pain is going to happen, but the suffering, the
mental anguish which accompanies pain can be reduced and in some cases turned
into joy when the right mental outlook is applied. Can I turn the lead in my
heel into gold in my soul? I can if I accept the offering of pain’s tutelage.